The wind freezed my hands and locked my voice. Coldness was firmly wrapping my body.  

Just before i was going out with Jacky and Longxi for a simple dinner,  Sally asked me to comfort her a bit as she just broke up with her bf.  I just couldn't believe that ... it was the fifth time that such story happened on the people around me, since i came to Netherland. What's more, the stories all looked similar:  the actor and actress lived apart and broke up. well, i can do nothing but just hope you guys are going to recover soon.
Usually, my mood tends to be easily affected by others'. This time, I cannot stop sighing and comtemplating about all these happenings, certainly it made me also a bit low.
It was the first night I spent in my small but individual office. Last time, i talked with Cammye and said i was fond of the life here and even didn't wanna go back home after Christmas... Life is much simpler and passionating especially in this block. In the morning, i bring a cup of coffee with me to the lectures. After that, I can enjoy some snacks in the cafeteria and then spend the afternoon in the office for my traineeship. Or sometimes, i may take a break and have a cup of afternoon tea. When I am a bit tired, I can have a relaxing bird view of the campus and the city. What a great place my office locates !  Haha, i know it's not right to indulge the use of it ... but.. sorry for not doing anything with traineeship tonight here.  

Raula's tag was always the board of the sales information. It's good to know that from early december, a new sales season will start. To get rid of such coldness, i shall have a really thick coat. It's nice to have some changes.. especially i have been quite sick of wearing the same coat for couple of weeks..  

Yesterday, I did some practice of my French with Nico on msn. I was so disappointed that every sentence i made always had several mistakes. I can imagine it was really bothering for him to correct every stupid mistake and explained the grammar to me. Then it reminded the time I was studying French in Verseille Ecole de Langue. I was considered so intelligent and talented in learning French.... But.... the perseverance is always the decisive factor and time is always the ruler to gauge the work. Apparently, I am not fit for this rule...I am just so passion-pushed... i gotta learn a bit from some planning-pushed guys. Open my eyes and find something fancy further and even out of my vision.Then let it guide my work.  

Typing quite many words ,, does bring me some warmth. But..outside this bright room is dark, cold and icy.  What gets even worse is that it seems i have no idea  about how to ski through this real winter and --- in an elegant manner.

      记得半个月前，写过一个帖子说过，在国外要有想法，努力去尝试并尽可能实现它。
     最近由于空余的时间有一定增多，也就让我可以仔细地去思考一些东西。
先讲慈善，最近（也许是一时热度，但希望不是）对慈善或是公益事业变得非常热衷，甚至昨天还特地花了1，2个小时在网上搜查在荷兰本地的各类慈善组织，有些遗憾没有发现专门帮助中国贫穷地区的慈善组织，有帮助印度贫穷孩子的，也有帮助新加坡孤儿的等等。其实很多人都有一颗爱心，但是往往需要别人提供一个让他们展现爱心的平台，就像宁波曾经组织的结对资助一万个贵州中小学生的活动，很多市民都是苦于名额被抢光而不能有机会帮助他们。然而最难的却就是构建这个平台。所以，我无比赞叹螃蟹同学和她们的团队所为之努力的工作，也愿意真正花心思下去出一份力。我这两天就在探寻有没有可能通过偶贫瘠的人脉，能够说服一些公司也在warmfund设立基金。我来荷兰后很高兴自己一点的是，以前很多事情我都是做了一半，或是才开个头就放弃了。而现在至少能在一定程度上不断去努力，把一些事情做好或是尽量地把这事情做得时间更长些。 晚上和david随便聊了几句关于慈善的事情，他觉得必须能够give time才行，这个对我来说其实挺难的。我的主业是学习，要给出非常多的时间是做不到的，只能像现在有段时间空了，稍微帮些忙。而做公益事业可能更重要的还是要感染他人。让别人觉得你做得这个事情是很有意义的，是很值得他们也来协助你的，这样工作就会容易开展下去。而一味地要别人干啥干啥，或是问别人索取，可能第一下别人第一感就不想理了，尽管我们头顶了一个慈善或是公益事业的光环。然而要感染他人，谈何容易。这也是我在思考的，也想通过阅读一些相关的书来学习。
     

      第二个事情讲锻炼。昨天去了体育馆做了健身，又开始提到坚持这个事情了。体育锻炼也一样需要坚持，当时9月份的时候参加了击剑，后来由于繁忙和其他事情参加了3次以后再也没去了，觉得很愧疚。特别教练还是一个特别幽默的人，我在想是不是啥时候再回去训练两次。这也是我在荷兰期间几件比较遗憾的事情之一。总结一点来说，但凡没坚持住的事情我都抱有相当地遗憾，坚持下来的即使有失败也会觉得值得。打篮球也是应该积极提倡的。特别上周还史无前例地一天内连续三分单挑战胜david（比较运气，DAVID那天没手感)和1vs1单挑龙曦苦战五局获胜（借助了一定的夜色）.然后对打篮球的信心就暴涨! 所以决定每周至少打两次篮球. 希望这句话不是热血时的一句话,真正去实现他.
    

       第三个事情讲小实习的东西. 由于BLOCK B那时候实在是太繁忙了,小实习可以说基本没有动,直到上周人家来参观,人家问了些某些问题我不得不回答, well, *** had been completed before i came here...i know little about *** ... 下决心好好开始做了. 这个星期也算没虚度,至少把前人的labview程序好好研究了一下,大致上是看懂了怎么回事了.然后今天下午迈出了实习的第二步,开始研究本来这个程序存在的问题. 发现...有时候启动时,这个chest press' bar就是直接往前冲(非常危险), 所以需要想办法改善程序避免这个情况.还有一个很爽的事情是,做这个实习我相当于拥有了一个独立的办公室(电脑,桌子,甚至电话...因为那个健身仪器就在这个独立房间),然后在信号组的集体办公室也有自己的桌子+电脑...哈哈~~   
     

      第四个事情是,圣诞回国. 这个事情先提前向大家宣布一下,我的回国日期是12月28号,到国内的时间是12月29号早上,上海浦东机场. 而回荷兰的日期是1月19号夜里,1月20号早上到德国法兰克福. 预计会安排1月份中的2-3天到杭州来会会~~  其他时间估计是基本呆在宁波了... 可惜这个时间北京的好友都不能回来....  真想当时机票订的是到北京的就好了,不过机票贵哪.特别是某两头牛(邓牛,余牛),居然已经几个月没有联系了,我会冲到你们住的地方蹭睡的...! 没地方睡,你们就睡地上,我睡你们的床了. ~~
    

      第五个事情,我最近花钱有点越来越收不住了.或者说花钱越来越大方了.现在超市已经到了只去Albert Hijn不可的程度了,嫌其他超市购物环境差而且离家远,也不怕albert hijn的东西是全城最贵的.然后连续两天早饭也不在家吃了,到了学校要么auditorium要么在laplace楼的餐厅买一块苹果派+一杯咖啡 ( 1.75欧哪 ..),端着就直接去上10点三刻开始的课了. 然后到了下午,因为和龙曦办公室同楼都要一起出来喝点东西,咖啡或者茶,或者芬达啥的...  这么一算不得了了,一个月光吃就要突破200欧... 听说我妈一同事的女儿在荷兰生活费一个月才花60欧(不含住宿费) ....  这我还没赚钱就已经开始过荷兰中产阶级人民的生活了.... 这样貌似不行啊.... 

     最后呢,今晚发生件不太愉快的事情,希望明日依旧能阳光.